ROOTED IN THE BOWELS OF THE EARTH: Whipple, Wallowing, and Recovery

Solid pseudopapillary neoplasm by Omid Savari, M.D.

โ€œNovels, one would have thought, would have been devoted to influenza; epic poems to typhoid; odes to pneumonia, lyrics to toothache. But no; with a few exceptionsโ€ฆ literature does its best to maintain that its concern is with the mind; that the body is a sheet of plain glass through which the soul looks straight and clear. On the contrary, the very opposite is true. All day, all night the body intervenesโ€ฆ But of all this daily drama of the body there is no recordโ€ฆ To look at these things squarely in the fact would need the courage of a lion tamer; a robust philosophy; a reason rooted in the bowels of the earth.โ€

Woolf, On Being Ill

Authorโ€™s note: I wrote this because a lot of people reach out to me on social media to ask about my experience having a Whipple. They are either getting one or supporting a loved one who needs to undergo the procedure. Despite this procedure being pretty rare, this request for information happens fairly frequently. I wanted to share my experience and give people an in-depth view of having this procedure and the recovery process while also offering some encouragement. If youโ€™re wondering why this is in second person, its because I initially started writing this in response to someone asking what they could expect with the Whipple. But then I started talking to my past self, a different self than the one writing this paragraph. I hope you find it helpful, whoever you are, and good luck.


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2023: Year in Review

A wintery welina to you all! It feels like this year was very fallow creatively because, while I did draw a ton, I was mostly focused on working and saving for 2024 and also doing a lot of organizing! I also used this year to take classes and workshops to dig deeper and renew my creative process. Next year will be focused on 2 collaborative graphic novel projects so I really wanted to focus on absorbing art, fiction, and the creative philosophies of others. Still, combing through my work for the year, I did more than I thought so here’s a little round-up in no particular order.

  • Leslie and I ran the 2023 Minicomic Awards with your special guest judges Yuko Ota and Ananth Hirsh! Each winner was awarded $1000, a generous prize pool made possible by our wonderful donors! The Awards will now be hosted by the Cartoonist Cooperative and you can see the winners, donors and more on our new homepage! Submissions for the 2024 Awards are already up, too!
  • My team and I founded the Cartoonist Cooperative, a volunteer-run organization that aims to improve and protect the careers of comics workers globally and currently the biggest comics rights movement in history! We also have brand new Member Benefits and are adding more all the time which we’re very proud to offer!
  • I was invited to give virtual craft talks and workshops for places like Center for Cartoon Studies and Clarion West which was super fun!
  • I started working for Wizards of the Coast as a Visual Writer designing art for Magic the Gathering cards. Incredibly fun job and the perfect niche little job for a cartoonist!
  • My story “Paradise” was featured in BRAVE NEW WEIRD: The Best New Weird Horror, Volume One published by the wonderful Tenebrous Press.
  • I was commissioned to write a story for an unannounced MIT Press anthology which I’m really stoked for people to read. Not sure when it’ll be out yet but it was a story that took up a lot of my attention this year and I’m happy with how it came out!
  • Death in the Mouth Vol 1 made the 2023  Locus Recommended Reading List and won a Australian Shadows Award!
  • I mentored a good grip of cartoonists and comic writers through the Unicorn Authors Club where I coach and also freelance via my website. It’s so rewarding to see what other artists are working on and trying to help them to find connect to their work and themselves in a deeper way. Also just uncovering how the industry works for those not embedded in it, it can be so opaque to new folks! If you nee career or comics coaching or editing, hit me up here.
  • Prism Stalker: The Weeping Star, the 2nd volume in my indigenous sci-fi adventure series came out in August! Here’s the animated trailer for Vol 1 again because it’s just that sick (and you can’t forget the original book soundtrack by Nomie!)! Oh yea and some posters I made for my book tour…
  • I crowdfunded Death in the Mouth Vol 2 successfully with my co-editor Cassie Hart! It was a bit of a pain switching from Backerkit to Kickstarter right at launch but we pulled it out in the end! Here’s the trailer for the book, made by Darius Ou and our beautiful cover by Jeffrey Kam!
  • The Blade and the Bloodwright came out from Lightspeed Magazine! Its a Pasifika-inspired dark fantasy short story about a magical woman who is a weapon of mass destruction, island nations at war, and the woman’s envious protector!
  • Leslie and I collabed on a short comic for a VIZ horror anthology called BETWIXT! This was such a blast and always a dream to work with my bestie on comics ๐Ÿ™‚
  • My novella With the Blade as Witness came out in Interzone #296! You might remember this far-future indigenous mech short story from awhile ago…well, it’s been DOUBLED in length! I wasn’t done with this story and im excited about the shape its taken now!
  • I put together a Cronenberg fanzine called Murdered Futures with a bunch of cool authors and artists! Use the password ‘ephemerol’ to download it.
  • Sold my story โ€œLast Resortโ€ to the Dark Matter Presents: The Off-Season anthology!
  • I said this up top but…I/we sold 2 collaborative graphic novels! One I’m writing with Leslie Hung drawing and one I’m drawing with Brian Evenson writing ๐Ÿ™‚
  • I got to draw and design a cover for my friend Porpentine’s novel, Serious Weakness!
  • I attended the Native American Media Alliance TV Writing Workshop and was awarded a Native American Writer Accelerator Grant through them and Netflix! An incredible surprise! I also attended NAMA’s film festival LA Skinsfest which features exclusively work by native creatives! It was amazing!
  • I was featured in the first issue of Gladiolus Magazine, run by powerhouse Jamila Rowser!
  • I read for the LA Times Book Prize again with fellow judges Zach Hazard Vaupen and Nero O’reilly-Villagallos! So many good comics as always, its going to be hard to choose just a single standout.
  • Not a highlight but a pivotal moment in my life this year: I lost my grandma, a sweet and loving woman who always supported me and all her loved ones. She’d been in a care home for several years, hanging on despite all her health issues. I don’t really like sharing much about my personal life but this changed me, as did my grandpas death and struggle up to it back in 2019. That generation of my family is now gone and with that comes a new weight for me to carry, grief but also a sense of commitment to my life, loved ones and my work. Here’s their beautiful faces in their youth:
  • I also lost my good friend Akira of almost 14 years. Akira was a serious lady and a loyal protector. Iโ€™m gonna miss her. Here’s a little drawing and poem I wrote about her…

Some favorite things I watched/read this year though I didn’t watch many new things:

ComicsThe Extraordinary Part: Book One: Orsay’s Hands by Jerome Mulot and Ruppert, Blood of the Virgin by Sammy Harkham, The Great Beyond by Lรฉa Murawiec, CODA by Si Spurrier and Matรญas Bergara, Doctor Strange: Fall Sunrise by Trade Moore, A Guest in the House by Emily Carroll, #DRCL midnight children, Vol. 1 by Shinโ€™ichi Sakamoto, Prokaryote Season by Leo Fox, Social Fiction by Chantal Montellier

TV: Pluto, Jujutsu Kaisen, Beef, Reservation Dogs, Succession, Scott Pilgrim Takes Off, Barry, I’m a Virgo, Dead Ringers

Movies:ย Killers of the Flower Moon, Anatomy of a Fall, The Boy and the Heron, May December, John Wick 4, Tar, Beau is Afraid, Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles: Mutant Mayhem, Suzume, May December, Napoleon, Passages, The Iron Claw, Perpetrator, Rotting in the Sun

Games: The Legend of Zelda: Tears of the Kingdom, Baldur’s Gate 3, (I put no effort in digging for indie games this year sadly)

Books: Wilding by Melanie Tem, The Wall by Marlen Haushofer, Villette by  Charlotte Brontรซ, Between Two Fires by Christopher Buehlman, Future Home of the Living God by Louise Erdrich, Twins: Dead Ringers by Bari Wood, Serious Weakness by Porpentine Charity Heartscape

Remember when I said I wanted to move to LA last year and had a lead on a TV writing gig? Lol. Lmao. Maybe in a few years when stuff gets back to “””normal””” in LA T_T.

The Art of Rape: Crafting Violation in TV and Film

With House of the Dragon and Game of Thrones coming back into cultural focus, a common discussion I see crop up over and over again is crtiiscm of the failed depictions of sexual violence in media and whether said depictions should be in art at all. The latter is a ridiculous sentiment but the first I wanted to unpack: What does a nuanced depiction of sexual assault and its fallout look like? In live action media, does it simply come down to acting? Frequency of said act? Composition of how itโ€™s shot? Does there need to be screen time of the character thinking about the rape and recovering from it? Can a story contain rape without it becoming a ‘rape story’? When is rape not ‘necessary’? When does it โ€˜serve the plotโ€™?

Obviously there is no capital A answer to these, only answers of taste and preference. I recall Brandon Taylor’s piece ‘emotional support trauma plot‘ a response to Parul Sehgal’s piece ‘The Case Against the Trauma Plot’ (both wonderful essays), in which he says, “The trauma plot strikes me as a name we might give to fiction in which there is simply no there there, you know? Like, fiction that gropes toward or gestures at some shadowy region of the human experience because it has nothing really interesting to say about being alive.”

There is no accounting for artistic mediocrity. Sturgeonโ€™s Law tells us that shitty writing will always vastly outnumber good writing and that shittiness fuels, I think, offense within an already paranoid audience. Some feedback I got on this essay was that they wanted me to dive more into mishandlings of sexual violence and the tropes that comes with that, like rape as shorthand to gain readerโ€™s empathy, rape as motivation for change, rape in hurt/comfort fic. But none of these tropes are bad on their face; narrative context matters. 

Part of this trend of badly-crafted trauma narratives, Taylor goes on to explain, is the trend of tone and voice, along with the ubiquity of them in popular stories. Homogeneity of experience, especially secondhand, ends up as a regurgitant formula that rings with untruth because of its rigid repetition. This is common with a lot of subject matter, be it banal or gravely serious. But I also donโ€™t think a poor depiction of rape should be considered any more an egregeious sin than any other poor depiction of anything, which for some reason it is.

I would say along with this meditation on artistic mediocrity, partiularly with depictions of rape, there are specfic stereotypical storybeats people reach for, as seen in almost every whodunnit TV show. These procedurals vastly end up centering the attacker and romanticizing his pathology while the victim is reduced to a site for clues. Their violation becomes simply a vehicle for mystery. The sexual violence is also usually toothlessly depicted if it is shown at all. And yet these stories are immensely popular. To the general audience, as long as the rape is not centered, itโ€™s palatable, desirable even. The violation is a means to another end, not the end itself. Like most choices in art, it all depends on context and Iโ€™m not convinced that these aforementioned plots are always a poor craft choice but that mediocrity coupled with a supposed lack of reverence for the violation stirs up offense in a certain audience.

I wonder if the trend in how audiences engage with art and the neurosis around art’s infectious influence on reality, is also to blame. Wait, that’s a lie, I don’t wonder at all. For the general populace, across culture, the sexual is the sacred profane, the romantic. Its the animal, the generative. The anti-death, the art. There is so much impossibly dense shame around sex, a human expericene generally concieved of as good or at least neutral when done consensually funnily enough, that it doesn’t take much to see why sexual violence is rephrensible to them to experience in media, to say nothing of their feelings towards the artist that depicts it. If you want to read more on art, harm and our protective instincts of disgust, Iโ€™ve written about it more here.

The characters who experience this type of sexual violation in stories still greatly focus on the experience of women. One glaring absence that hasn’t been helped by the permeation of #metoo is men’s experiences with rape. A friend mentioned that this was one thing Game of Thrones did well, exploring several male characters as they undergo a variety of sexually violent experiences. Same goes for Coel’s I May Destroy You, where Paapa Essieduโ€™s character Kwame is raped by a man he met on Grindr, though his arc allows for far less complex exploration than is given Michaela Coelโ€™s character Arabella. The fictional exploration of child sexual assault is even moreso intolerable to the audience in our creative climate, among other related taboos.

There is also a heavy expectation for sufficient attention and solemnity around anything sexual but especially sexual violence, and a demand for dignity for the fictional victim. In addition, anything that deviates from reverence, whether aesthetic or in its contextual narrative execution, is often looked upon as badly crafted. The raped body must be depicted within an aesthetic framework of violation. Gratuity and spectacle around sexual violence is egregeious to the typical viewer. What are the aesthetics of dignity? How are they at odds with spectacle and melodrama? Coming from a culture where pomp and death are intertwined, I don’t believe that shock and spectacle is at odds with diginity and meaningfulness and though it is always a matter of execution, I think generally there’s a flinching response to stylistic extravagance in service to sexual violence.

To push this question further, is it ever legitimate of a creative work to purposely depict a rape in a fetishistic or erotic manner? Why or when is that titillation wrong in a craft-sense? Some would argue that would push the creation into pornographic territory but then one must answer where the line is between porography and art. If art is an abstract, distilled expression of self, I donโ€™t see why porngraphy doesnโ€™t fall into that category. A strong aesthetic desire, to me, is the same function a fetish fills, with an added erotic element. To answer the questions at the start of this paragraph, for me personally, if the erotic execution serves the goals of the work, then it is a legitimate choice. When titillation isnโ€™t the artistic goal but is nonetheless conveyed in a way that feels fetish-y, then that can promote a decoherence that I consider to be bad craft. One example of this would be the true crime genre across media which I find delivers details of attacks and a romanticization of violent offenders in a fetishistic, titillating way.

This anxiety around our moral responsibilities as viewers brings to mind Greenaway’s The Baby of Mรขcon, a film established at the start as a movie of a masque or play. In it, the rape of the character known as ‘the daughter’ by an army of 208 men to the point of death becomes terrifying as the play blurs into reality. As the performance of rape is hidden by a curtani, one of the playโ€™s actors playing a soldier states, “no need to act anymore, the audience can’t see.” The audience in question is the play’s spectators within the film but we, the spectators outside the film, are given full view of the actresses’ ‘true’ violation before we too are cordoned off by a curtain. It’s an excellent layered depiction of sexual violence, playing with ideas of complicity in the creation of art as well as the director and audience’s fetishization of aesthetics, voyerism and sexual violence.

Coming up in the Feminist Frequency era of media critiscm, when people were using the Bechdel Test literally, I still see its planar vestiges in critical analysis today where the audience expects to see models of morality within the narrative. Why didn’t the rapist go to jail? Why didn’t the victim report to the police? Why didn’t the victim get to overcome their assault within the story? Why didnโ€™t they get to confront their attacker? And so on. There is a distinct discomfort which boils into offense when an artist refuses the audience’s comfort over their own personal truth. How does a concept like the passive protagonist or story structures that go against Western narrative tradition factor into a rape narrative? These elements seem impossible to weave for an audience who privileges a fictional character’s agency, surface representation and a clear moral arc over what the work actually wants to be.

In my graphic novel, A Map to the Sun, a 16 year old native girl has a sexual relationship with her older white male teacher and the final resoltuion is that she makes plans to stop seeing him. There is no confrontation or consequence for him; I couldn’t tell you how many reviews and emails I got telling me how morally wrong this was of me to write despite this being based on lived experience, that an older white man in a institutional position of power would get the benefit of the doubt over a delinquent student of color, that the cops would do nothing, that the shame of admitting the situation would be more harmful to the girl than the man. It’s an ugly truth but a truth nonetheless.

When morality is not an issue, tidy narrative endings are another element western audiences have a particular insistent need for. When sexual trauma is not resolved in story or, worse, when resolution is not even gestured at, audiences find it unsatisfying to a degree they assume is morally bad. There is something about sexual violence in media, especially within the US, that is particularly abhorrent, a reaction at odds with non-sexual violence which most USians find entertaining mainstays in media. There’s also a common sentiment from the audience who find rape reprehensible to depict that feeds into the idea that rape is the worse thing that can happen to you. I almost prefer a blase depiction of rape rather than the โ€œyouโ€™ll never recover from this and you are broken foreverโ€ depiction that is the usual go-to.

There’s also a coherence around the โ€˜toneโ€™ of the body that is generally expected from an audience and any decoherence is distasteful. A raped body being anything other than a static site of violation, acting out anything that isn’t the performance expected of a victim, becomes uncomfortable and transgressive. One of my favorite examples of this is Twin Peaks: Fire Walk With Me, where Lauraโ€™s ongoing rape by her father fuels her own masochistic, drug-fueled sexual life. Horror and titillation, revulsion and love are braided together throughout, exuding from Laura and also flowing into her. Another good example is rape-revenge and exploitation films, where the body as a site of pleasure and a site of transgression, pain and violence is juxtaposed, causing discomfort. Ito’s Female Prisoner #701: Scorpion is a good example, giving us a wholly tense but surprisingly restrained rape scene placed in sequence to playful and sensational pinku imagery. Noe’s Irreversible lingers equally long on the rape of Belucci’s character Alex as it does her being intimate with her lover Marcus, played by Vincent Cassel.  

Another one of my favorite depictions of rape and the subsequent metabolization of the experience resides in Paul Verhoeven’s Elle, in which the titular Elle played by the stunning Isabelle Huppert, a successful businesswoman, is raped in her own home by a man in a ski mask. There’s more to this film that I have time to describe but much of the subsequent story isn’t just a whodunnit but a deep exploration of a single woman’s frighteningly unique desire for domination and a dangerous game of power dynamics, one she continues to play with the man she knows to be her rapist.

Another part of Elleโ€™s experience that resonates is her lack of concern with the rape; she doesnโ€™t have the typical shower breakdown but neatly bathes off the blood after her rape. She doesnโ€™t call the cops even at the urging of her friends and ex, nor takes any precautions to barricade herself inside her home. She also doesnโ€™t become timid or paranoid, still maintaining her assertiveness by berating her immature male employees at her company. There is nothing in Elleโ€™s script that is typical and yet it feels truer for it, especially for me. Elle feels like a more mature echo of her equally complex role in The Piano Teacher, her performance excavating a character that can only exist in this time and place, with specific desires and fears and perversions. Elle’s story as a whole doesn’t care about perceived morality or providing tidy resolutions, its loyalty lies only with the truth of this character and the director’s vision.

Good art isnโ€™t concerned with tropes and reinforcing or subverting ideologies; thatโ€™s PR. Thatโ€™s optics. Not art. Sometimes the stereotype, the ugly, unflattering and insulting cliche, is true. As Rodin told us, โ€œThere is nothing ugly in art except that which is without character, that is to say that which offers no outer or inner truth.โ€ What more can you ask from art than truth?

Finding Useful Feedback: Prose

Part of growing as an artist is finding how to develop yourself creatively by doing solo, internal work but also through external avenues. For some artists, that means attending workshops, hiring editors, and attending creative programs. For artists without that sort of access, it takes a little bit more ingenuity and work to find feedback to help them on their journey. As an artist who took the latter journey when developing her own creative practice, I thought Iโ€™d share a little about my process of getting beneficial feedback from both readers and creative peers. Iโ€™ll start with writing and then move to art in another post, though I think a lot of my thoughts are applicable to both mediums.

I wonโ€™t go deeply into how to find writing partners or a writing group; thereโ€™s resources galore regarding that particular endeavor. Instead, Iโ€™ll focus on considerations when approaching someone for feedback. How do you get the best feedback you can out of them? As Iโ€™ve gotten critiques from new acquaintances and close friends, readers and creatives at different stages in their practices, Iโ€™ve come to think that orienting your critic beforehand is crucial. Some things to think about in the early stages of the exchange:

Experience: Whatโ€™s the critic’s level of experience re: giving feedback? A lot of writers will jump at the chance of having their manuscript read but if the critic is poor at expressing themselves, unnecessarily harsh, or overly prescriptive, this can be detrimental to the writer and a waste of time for both of you. Understanding your criticโ€™s experience level and setting up expectations before the reading begins is an important step. One way to do that is to give your critic a list of questions to answer as they read or after. If itโ€™s more informal, itโ€™d be good to frame the state of your work: are you trying something new in this story and want a light touch critique? Is this draft #58 and you want concise, blunt feedback? Let the critic know; itโ€™s okay to protect your ego or the esteem of your work. If they have no experience and arenโ€™t particularly knowledgeable around โ€˜craft lingoโ€™, maybe they can provide a more gut-level type of feedback. The simplest questions (eg. What parts were boring? What parts were fun?) can be helpful to some degree.

Genre: Whatโ€™s your critic’s familiarity with the genre youโ€™re working? Will they understand the traditions and tropes you’re working with? Will they be able to call you out on cliches? If they work in a different genre, what are the benefits of the genre that youโ€™d like to draw into your own work? Can you give this critic a questionnaire that interrogates that aspect of their experience more specifically? EG. maybe youโ€™re writing fun, action-y fantasy epics but your critic writes dark romance. Maybe you can have them focus on finding spots in the work that could use more character interiority or suggest where to deepen emotional dynamics between characters. Honing in on what your critic is most likely to notice will help you get more specific and beneficial feedback.

Identity: This is obviously a large aspect to consider. In Salessesโ€™ book Craft in the Real World, he tells us, โ€œIn fifteen years of workshop, I have heard many comments that amount to โ€œHow unrelatable!โ€ but none has been anything other than an attempt to avoid talking about craft. To say a work of fiction is unrelatable is to say, โ€œI am not the implied audience, so I refuse to engage with the choices the author has made.โ€ If relatability were somehow a goal of craft, then the question should be: How can a writer go about trying to make a piece of fiction relatable? If we mean โ€œrelatableโ€ as sharing a readerโ€™s experience, the first place to go is audience. We must always ask: Relatable to whom? Which brings us back to the elephant in the roomโ€”to call a manuscript โ€œrelatableโ€ is really to make a claim about who the audience is or should be.โ€

And in another relevant section, โ€œCraft is about how the words on the page do this: what expectations the writer engages with imply whom both the implied reader and implied author are and what they should believe in and care about, what they need explained and/or named, where they should focus their attention, what meaning to draw from the text.โ€

I highly recommend reading this book whether your a storyteller or a reader, itโ€™s illuminating how even the most facile parts of what we choose to engage with or ignore, both as storytellers and readers, constructs a complex implied reader: one whose identity (and, therefore, life experience) your critic may not share or enjoy. Orienting your critic who the audience is you’re writing for will be important in setting them up for maximum understanding. For example, suppose you’re writing for an implied reader who understands Hawaiian slang and cultural behaviors; if your critic is not familiar with Hawaiian culture, this can be alienating and their critique will say as much. They may feel like they canโ€™t even engage with the work at all. But If you prepare them beforehand, they’ll realize this was your intent and frame their critique accordingly.

This also ties into the literary traditions the reader knows and is approaching the work from. For some examples, hereโ€™s a list of story structures from around the world. Narrative choices that may seem rote to you, may seem strange and glaringly odd to them. This isnโ€™t a judgment on the choice you make but itโ€™s another element to think aboutโ€“who are you writing for? Is there space in there for connection for those that arenโ€™t your implied reader? Does there need to be? Or is it more important to be faithful to your implied readerโ€™s knowledge and sensibility?

Intent: Cold reads may also be useful, that is, letting someone dive into your manuscript without any context or introduction. But sometimes that results in a critic spending a lot of time on 1) things you already know need to be fixed 2) things that donโ€™t need to be fixed. It’s at this point you can establish the big picture elementsโ€”themes, genre, tone, and implied readerโ€”you’re aiming for. You could even provide examples of other authors whose style or approach to story is someone you’d like to emulate as a way to help your critic frame their feedback. With these goalposts in mind, the critic can then measure their experience against what you intended and share whether your piece hit the mark for them or missed.

When processing feedback, I like what Salessesโ€™ says: โ€œIf we in fact critique other peopleโ€™s writing through our own writing perspective, that critique helps us to understand ourselves. Since the weaknesses we perceive in a manuscript are weaknesses we perceive, our solutions might be most helpful to the problems we face in our own work. But one writerโ€™s treasure is another writerโ€™s trash. In the two years I spent writing myself out of my novel, I wasnโ€™t aware of what I was doing. I could tell I was getting good adviceโ€”I couldnโ€™t tell that it was good advice for someone else.โ€

Distinguishing bad advice from good is only one step when considering critique; the next part is distinguishing good advice from advice applicable to your story and your intentions for the story.

On Purple Prose

Hiroyuki Katou & Keisuke Gotou

One of the most common pieces of advice youโ€™ll get as a writer is not to write purple prose and itโ€™s almost uniformly the thing editors will par away when confronted with in a manuscript. What is purple prose? From Wordsmith: โ€œAn overly ornate piece of writing. Two synonyms of the term are ‘purple passage’ and ‘purple patch’. The idea comes from Latin pannus purpureus (purple patch), a phrase used by the poet Horace in his Ars Poetica (The Art of Poetry) to suggest a patch of royal fabric on an ordinary cloth, a brilliant piece of writing in an overall dull work. Purple was the color of choice by the royalty as the purple dye was the rarest and hence most expensive.โ€ The connotations in the origins of the term arenโ€™t as negative as I expected. True, there is an imbalance suggested here, a lack of cohesion, and a measure of pretension; but thereโ€™s also a sense of reaching for the fantastic and unattainable, an exhibition of something rare and treasured.

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Inspiration, Ideas, and What’s Worth Pursuing

The most common questions I get as an artist are โ€œWhat inspires your work?,โ€ โ€œWhere do you find your ideas?,โ€ and โ€œHow do you know what ideas are worth developing?โ€

Inspiration is often described as something that happens to us, an element out of our control that suddenly erupts unbidden into our consciousness. At least, thatโ€™s how it felt when I was a child but only because everything I experienced in my youth was shocking in its novelty. I was struck by the unknown all around me. I used to associate inspiration with a state of ideational flow and the emotion of joy, excitement. A sort of creative high. A common misconception people have is that the experience of inspiration stays the same throughout one’s life. That inspiration is a thing that just hits us out of nowhere. But as adults, we begin to lose out on encountering new and surprising things because of sheer experience. So how does one get inspired?

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What Makes Good Dialogue?

Recently, I was talking with a mentee about what makes good dialogue and wanted to compile some more thoughts here. The most common goal I hear from writers is how to make their dialogue realistic or natural. But good dialogue isnโ€™t always realistic or natural dialogue. These two terms get conflated a lot which can be misleading. If you listen to people in conversation, they often speak in cliches, overuse idioms, repeat themselves and skirt a lot of context that exists between the speakers (depending on how deep their relationship is). This can make for very bland reading, though, sometimes that blandness can be intentional and making that choice is what matters.

I find when I come across mealy dialogue, it’s because of an over-dependence on realism or naturalism. I donโ€™t think thereโ€™s anything wrong with striving for realism but itโ€™s not always acknowledged that grasping for the โ€œrealโ€โ€“whatever that isโ€“from a singular author will still give evidence of biases, limited experience and particular cultural contexts in a distilled form. Your real is only your real, not everyone elseโ€™s even if others recognize aspects as familiar. Some writers try to graft realism into their work, which often means relying on stereotypes and cliches in order to widen the scope of their story and therefore make it feel more global, heterogenous, but that often comes off as fake and shallow. So why strive for this false state of consensus reality when whatโ€™s made in the tunnel of your own mind is much more interesting?

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What Makes A Good Story?

From Kannou Sensei by Yoshida Motoi

So far, in the last two months, Iโ€™ve read over 200 short story submissions ranging between 1000-6000 words which means Iโ€™ve been inundated with the same question: what makes a good story? Answering this question involves another set of subquestions and the difficult challenge of identifying 1) what are the interesting and engaging aspects of a story, 2) what is working against the story and, 3) what can we change to improve the story.

Good storytelling and good art is something Iโ€™ve been thinking about a lot but especially in the last two years. In 2020, Leslie Hung and I ran a season-long comics mentorship with three mentees who were preparing proposals for graphic novels in a variety of genres. We provided developmental support and critique during biweekly meetings for several months. I also attended CRIT, a high impact writing workshop which required written critique of our cohortsโ€™ stories which was both extremely challenging and rewarding. This year, I was a part of the Ancestral Futures Mentorship program and got to mentor an extremely talented Gothic speculative fiction writer. Most recently, I Kickstarted a BIPOC illustrated short fiction anthology which Iโ€™m co-editing with Cassie Hart.

In these roles, Iโ€™ve had to find a clear, constructive vocabulary to be able to communicate the answers to those questions and have constructed a sort of three-prong diagnostic tool to help with that. The three aspects of story (which can range from flash to short stories to novels) that I think about most often are style, movement, and insight. These three aspects are dials you can throttle back or crank up, not values per se. This could be a post-procedural tool for a story you feel is complete and needs refinement or a calibrator you can turn to during the writing stage.

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